Ok, so here is the deal. All through high school, life was great. Of course i had my ups and downs but other then that factor, life was amazing. I didn't once glance at true reality when i was in HS. Never did i ponder about college or the fate it held for me. Then i graduated and got accepted in many universities but i blatantly peered through the letters and decided that UTSA would be fine. My lack of effort and sense of mediocrity got the better of me. I wanted a easy life. Then college started. It was all I could have ever hoped for. All through HS i had convinced myself college would be the best time of my life. I had a plethora of friends who i though would always be there for me. Little did i know. I went to parties and threw parties. I was popular and people loved me. Girls loved me. Then it started going downhill. My classes got increasingly tougher. My friends gradually mellowed away into a shadow I could barely see. College became bland. Its not that I'm doing bad in college. It's just that all through HS I went to school for my friends. I didn't give a damn about school. I couldn't have cared any less. Every morning now when I lean over to smash the snooze button only for it to ring again, i wonder why I feel so forced waking up. I know its not because I'm tired. It's because i have nothing to look forward to. My live doesn't suck and i do have friends. It's just the fun and passion has left. I was highly mistaken when I convinced myself that college would be more fun then high school. This obviously doesn't apply to everyone. Just me. I know things will get better but this is the way things are now. I wonder where it went...
- James Vadala
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